Sometimes it feels like we are part of one big robot factory and my life is not what it is meant to be. Who am I? What am I here on earth for. I struggle with my identity because it seems like everyone has a say in who I am and who I should be, except me. It's as if life is one big illusion and I have to try and fit in or blend into the picture. My music tells me what kind of clothes to wear, what kind of life to live, how I should look at or treat the opposite sex. I feel pressured amongst my friends to try and be like them, I would do anything for them to like me and to not think that I am a weirdo. But it seems like the more I try and make others accept me the more unhappy I become. I've done it all, from the countless nights getting drunk out of my mind, to treating the opposite sex like a sport and bragging about how they like me, to buying all kinds of brands and clothing so that society would accept me. But none of it could make me happy.
This changed when I found Jesus and he became the center of my living and joy. I have come to realise that I was never created to fit in or to be like someone else. I was never created to be a replica or a carbon copy of something that already exists. When God made me he had a special plan for me because he loves me so much. He wanted the world to celebrate my uniqueness and love me for my difference.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
God knows why I am I here, and as long as I live I dont want to try and be like other people. I want to be like me, because there is no one better at being me.....than ME.
#THE GARAGE.
wow...!!! I feel close to this scenario tooo. i struggle between impressing people and being whom God made me to be... its an Identity crisis that most of us go through.
ReplyDeleteI hear you man - identity is really an issue its crazier than we think
ReplyDeleteLOVE this read. Was in the same situation, that drew me closer to God. I found myself falling pray to wicked people both in my personal and business life, it was really upsetting and I often wondered why God would make me go through such situations. I was tempted to numb my self, retaliate towards the world and not care but apart of me couldn't, I just couldn't be that person. Though my parents were never christian they raised me to be honest and trust worthy in everything I do. I realised this was God's way of testing me, to see if I was strong enough to receive what he has planned for me. I need to be strong in spirit, to Gain the wisdom necessary to become the person God needs me to be. I still have a lot to learn, and though his methods might seem crude they are necessary and I trust him. I pray everyday that with each trial I grow closer to him and deem myself worthy of his name. With each new wave that beats upon it, the rock only becomes smoother never worn out, I'm that rock by the grace of God.
ReplyDeleteHey henrii, i love what you have learnt from the experience you have just told us about. What is really important is finding our true self in Christ and i work at that each and everyday and when i can.
DeleteIts by the GRACE..